Log 5 : Continue dreaming before reality gets you

Days are passing and Shikari and I didn't talk much, we didn't have anything to say. 

*Scribble scribble*

As I threw another paper in the trash

«Oku_56»

«Gosuto_raita01»

It's weird, none of their usernames or the thread show in the search bar.

"What are you doing ?"

Shikari woke up, getting out of his bed.

"I'm trying to find some infos on these two."

"Interesting, and what did you find ?"

"I could find the thread before but it's weird it disappeared even if it's still working."

"Uh I know that, it's not indexed into the forum directly even if it exists. So they avoid moderation or random people finding it."

"Oh... Yeah that's right. How do you know this ?"

"I don't know, common sense."

Common sense ? That's not common.

"Yeah yeah whatever, now I have no trace of their account but I got the exact username so I can still text them."

"What do you propose ?"

"I'm not sure for today. I think I'm gonna sleep, I stayed up all night."

"Oh well, I'll draw something in the meantime."

His voice fading in the background as I fell asleep.

"Shido ? You fell to the ground."

I woke up abruptly on a pavement in a school uniform, Ren in front of me, everything felt blurry. I put my hand on my temples.

"Huh... Ren ? Is this a dream ?"

"What do you mean ?"

"I was with a guy, in a dark room."

"Well, get up, you must have dreamt. Come on we're late to school !"

"No, I won't come."

"Why ?"

"It's just a dream and..." I felt a hit of sadness.

"It's too peaceful anyway. I wish real you could take care of me."

He got down next to me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Shido, I'm sorry."

His face distorted into Raiku.

I woke up slowly.

Hours had passed.

I didn't move at first. I felt the presence of someone near me, I slightly opened my eye and froze.

He was watching me ?

I waited, maybe he was searching for something here but nothing. He looked at me with a blank expression, perfectly sitting next to the mattress.

I acted like I just woke up.

I jolted up, my head hitting his.

"Hey, are you fine ? I'm sorry if I woke you up, the pencil fell next to the mattress."

What a liar.

"Are you crying ?"

"Oh no, just my head hurting."

He wiped a tear off my face. I grabbed his wrist.

"You're making me uncomfortable."

I threw his hands and he looked disappointed.

I stayed sitting on the bed while he got off to draw on the floor near me, facing the opposite direction. He looked tense.

"Hey, wanna play a game ?"

He turned to me.

"A game ?"

"Yeah, truth or dare ?" I said flatly but with a hint of anticipation.

"Okay. I'm all for it."

"Truth or dare ?"

"Truth." he said.

"How did you find the thread ?"

He paused before responding.

"Internet diving ?"

I frowned.

"I said you can't lie."

"Well I'm not lying." Arrogance in his voice.

"Now my turn, truth or dare ?"

"Truth."

"Did you ever hurt someone ? If yes how."

"Uhm.. Yeah."

"How ? Shido tell me." His annoying snarky face looking at me.

"Well uhm I said a bad thing to my friend."

"Liar."

I started biting my nails.

"How about passing the next question ?"

"Nope, that's the rules."

...

«You are failing school Shido ! Stop spending your days in your room.»

«You're ruining everything I do ! Shut up.»

«I'm saying this for your own good. Ungrateful brat.»

«You know what ? Get lost. I'm gonna go out, get some air.»

...

«Mom ? I'm home.»

«Mom ?»

I froze at the sight of it.

"Yes I hurt someone."

I snapped back to reality, tears falling down. His face was pitying me.

"How ?"

My mouth was filled with blood from biting my nails.

"I-I ah... all my fault. I pushed someone to death."

His face was blank.

"Let's call it a day."

I just sank my face in my legs.

"That's not a good thing to ask someone." I mumbled.

"If I didn't you would've asked me."

"I don't even need to ask to know the answer." I said.

"Yeah right."

He got up toward me. Did I say something wrong ?

"If you think I'm the worst here you should rethink it. At least I didn't kill someone."

I looked at him with hatred. I don't know what was stopping me from throwing something in his fucking face.

"I hate you, you bastard. I should've let you out."

"Do you hear yourself ?"

"Yeah you piece of shit."

"Too bad cause I like you."